daR bwack n whiit3 c0nfessii0n.

TO QUIT OR NORT TO QUIT SCH?!

2006-08-17T14:17:00.000+08:00

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[[DEADLYthursday]]
[[17``o8``o6]]
[[ 3rd neber g0 schh.]]

directly 2 mths t0 maii bdae. h0w m i g0nna celebrate? haiishh, perharps, jushh let it pass like any 0ther daes, let maii tears fl0ws.

3 daes neber g0 schh lerhhs. im still struggliingg. i hate sch, teachers, classmates, schmates. all hyp0crites. i really rather t0 repeat denn c0ntinue iin tiishh damn schh. 3 daes, s0 many thiinggs happenedd but i cant tell themm 0ut. im s0 tiiredd, stressed up but still s0 c0nfusedd. i lurbe starddiies, learnn new thiinggs but i jushh hates maii schh. bias, backstabbing, hyp0crites, liars all exiistedd.

t0dae, d0nn n0e whiichh idi0t called g0rhh g0rhh. = =. i w0nder whiichh idi0tic teacher wuldd call, whiichh hyp0crite tiishh time? if i wuldd t0 leave, i guess, every0ne wuldd be happiier iin tat class.

im gettiingg crazy so0nn. ytd nite, t0ts 0f prepariingg suicidal letters t0 all kept 0n appear in maii miindd. mayb lata i shldd really prepare in case if suchh thiinggs happenedd.

5 daes 0f acc0mpany. i guess, i wealli fell ferhh hiimm. i wealli wanns hiimm t0 n0e but im s0 afraiidd tat he wuldd change darhh way he treats miie. every huggs tat he gave miie, has a veryy speciial feeliingg tat even Alex culddn giibb. tat darhh fiirshh tiime i felt s0 secured inside s0me0ne's armms. whenn hiishh bwaii maii siide, ii felt s0 pr0tectedd, s0 safe tat i d0nn even felt like cryiingg. i w0nder wh0 iishh iin hiishh hart n0w, h0w i h0pedd tat iits miie, jushh a lil bit iishh enuff.

reflectii0nn 0f darhh dae; t0 quit schh iishh a silly idea tat wuldd st0p maii learniingg, n0rt t0 quit schh iishh a stupiidd idea tat wuldd c0ntinues maii sufferiinggs. whiichh 0ne shldd ii cho0se?

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2006-05-30T05:03:00.000+08:00

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[[ wahhs! s0 late lerhhs! ]]

fo0tpaths 0f 28``o5``o6;
well well, a m0ndae as it was.
ii was supp0sedd t0 g0 0ut wiibb marmmiie derhhs, iin darhh endd lehhs? after ii sh0wer fiiniishh denn she saiidd we're n0rt g0iingg 0ut. she left ferhh herhh haiir app0iintment n ii c0ntiinuedd harppiily watchhiingg maii bleachh epiis0des.
well well, ii was kiinda bastardd. as ii was watchhiingg, dar suddenly l0ggedd iin n ii diinn n0tiice b0ut it. he appr0achedd miie iin msn fiirshh, denn ii repliiedd burddenn iin kiinda retardedd ways as iim watchiingg aniime. he askedd wadd ii was d0iingg s0 ii t0ldd hiimm n wadd he t0t was ii, watchiingg hentaii. darhh last tiime ii watchedd hentaii was t0 kill b0red0m as iim lazy t0 fiindd khakiis.
s0 after awhile whenn ii preparedd maiiself, ii went 0ut iin search 0f khakiis.
ii call t0mm n f0undd 0ut s0methiingg tat was s0 sadd; they all went t0 ah dann's hse. s0bbs. he 0wnns a 3 mthh 0ldd g0ldenn retriiever lehhs! x l.
denn saw ke liingg, eriic cumm bear bear's elder br0, at 219. =DD
at last, ii saw s0me0ne ii knew!
mwaHAHAHAs. denn sat there wiibb hiimm n chat b0ut steadd stuffs. ii f0undd 0ut hiishh 26 n g0rt 15o++ EXs. O.O w0ahhs.
denn he left n went t0 sembawangg t0 fetchh s0me0ne n came backk iin an hr 0rhh s0methiingg later. meanwhile, ii b0rr0wedd bball frmm 111 derhh junjie's fwenns n startedd t0 traiinn backk maii sho0tiinggs.
denn later whenn darhh f0lks' dance less0nn startedd, they askedd ferhh darhh bball backk n ii j0iinedd ke liing n hiishh fwenns. L0Ls, hiishh kiinda carto0n lehhs. heardd darhh biikes stuffs n dance stuff frmm hiimm n 0ne 0f hiishh fwenn weariingg specs.
denn saw ke liingg dance a lil biit. denn suddenly, khakiis came backk iin search 0f Maurice, he rann away, erhhs, well well, ii culddn tell everythiingg as iim still kiinda blurhh b0ut Mauriice's stuff.
denn ah dann 0s0 dancedd abit 0f cha cha. hahas, hiishh abit cute fella. gladd tat hiishh beiingg muchh m0re fwennly n harppiie. =DD. hiishh actuallyy a great fwenn jushh tat g0tta c0ntr0l hiishh temper. xPP.

denn after awhile, khakiis went t0 233 ferhh diinner. maii st0machh gr0wledd al0t at there, fo0dd was everywhere, ii wann marmm marmm larhhs!! x l. denn y0ngg hann n hiishh steadd j0iinedd us denn later was Desm0nd, ah b0ngg's g0rhh g0rhh * des kiinda hands0me n cute lo0kiingg lehhs burddenn s0 sadd, he iishh siingle attachhedd. * , burddenn after awhile, he pulledd Benny t0 acc0mpany hiimm t0 3o0++ blkk. sadd siia benny left.
denn after awhile agaiinn, y0ngg hann, hiishh steadd, keat n miie went t0 235. saw a kiinda cute uncle there n sat wiibb hiimm. he sp0ke iin chiinese, h0kkiienn n engg. hahas. veryy farnniie iindeed if euu were there. denn ii f0undd 0ut; darhh guy wh0 g0rt a bandage thiinggy t0 h0ldd hiishh , ii tiinkk, diisl0catedd riite hand was calledd ah liiangg. he lo0kedd like darhh guy iin IM N0RT STUPID T00. well well, btw, Benny iishh iin darhh m0viie to0! hahas. he was nerdy. xPP. denn ah liiangg n hiishh fwenn wh0 iishh calledd melviinn j0iinedd us as they walkedd past n saw us. ii n0tiicedd tat darhh tw0 0f themm kept 0n be0 miie lehhs. wadds s0 niice b0ut maii face ehhs?
denn later, whenn darhh rest 0f darhh khakiis fiiniishedd theiir diinner, they j0iinedd us at 235.
y0ngg hann, hiishh steadd, ah liiangg, melviinn n uncle partedd wiibb miie n keat. s0 darhh tw0 0f us went t0 darhh playgr0undd t0 j0iinn darhh rest. Tiiann Xiinn f0undd mauriice. denn we slackedd at there. des, hiishh steadd, b0ngg, dann j0iinedd us later. denn at ardd 1o++ alm0st 1o``3o, Tiiann Xiin sent Mauriice h0me, t0mm went al0ngg n ii askedd whether iif ii culdd g0 al0ngg wiibb kiinda piityful eyes. =DD tats darhh best tactiic. xPP. denn iin darhh endd, ii still f0ll0wedd. whenn we reachh Mauriice blk, Tiiann alweady was 0n hiishh way up t0 Mauriice h0me. s0 t0mm n ii went t0 darhh cl0sest c0ffee sh0p. hahas. at there was quiite funn to0. as ii was alm0st haviingg gastriic paiinn, t0mm 0rderedd 2o slices 0f t0ast ferhh miie whiichh actually c0st 0ni $4. T T. ii ate 19 slices n alm0st v0miitedd. s0bbs. denn at there, t0mm became maii part tiime dear dear. hahas. =DD
denn after haviingg s0me funn there wiibb t0mm, tiiann, mauriice, we went backk t0 235. denn slackedd at there, lyiingg 0n darhh playgr0undd t0 watchh darhh beautiful sky. it was weallii niice, s0 many stars whiichh iim been wantiingg t0 see. darhh last tiime ii saw tiishh beautiful siight was a l0ngg tiime ag0. denn whenn iit was abt 12am, ciindy n herhh khakiis went up t0 darhh blkk 0n darhh left siide 0f darhh playgr0undd n there were sh0utiingg n ii guess there were s0me kiindd 0f cat fiites g0iingg 0n.
humpshh, g0nna seekk darhh truthh later frmm maii part tiime dear dear l0rhhs. =DD.
denn t0mm sent miie backk real quiickk tat we alm0st bwangg w0rhhs. phewws.
denn whenn reachh h0me, repliedd dar's msg whiichh was sent t0 miie 22``5o pm. it was abt 12am+++. blehhs.

reflectii0ns 0f darhh dae; s0metiimes, its quite true tat a dae wiith0ut steadd iishh p0ssiible, like darhh way ii m n0w. steadd iishh s0methiingg tat jushh made miie s0undedd iim 0wnedd. darhh way iim n0w iishh like there aiinn steadd iin maii liife.

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2006-05-30T04:20:00.000+08:00

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mem0riies 0f 28``o5``o6;
a terrible burddenn swiit sundae.
humpshh, went d0wnn staiirs n calledd dar ferhh a lil m0ment n hungg up.
0rhh yarhhs, dar was kiinda crazedd 0ver meiiyiinn. guess ii shldd let hiimm be free s0 tat he culdd be wiibb herhh riites? ii shldnn seperate c0uples wh0 miight meant t0 be wiibb n dar pw0miishedd miie tat he wuldd waiit ferhh miie t0 returnn denn he'll slp. iin darhh endd, he bw0ke hiishh pw0miishh, burddenn he explaiinedd tat he diinn. ii msgedd hiimm whenn ii returnedd h0me at 12am++ n there aiinn any repliies. he explaiins; hiishh f0ne was l0w batt s0 he 0ff-edd it n theref0re he diinn reply n he slept at 12``47am. f0ne l0w batt? cann charge wadd, as if he n0rt at h0me lidat. h0w culdd ii actually believe hiimm iin tiishh way?

there aiinn any 219 khakiis at darhh hang0uts.
0nii Eriic, bear bear lo0kiingg derhh larhhs, n hiishh buds were at 219.
went ferhh lunchh after hungg up n went backk t0 219 n darhh hang0uts.
serii0usly n0 0ne were there. they went t0 Paya Lebar airbase iin darhh m0rniingg ferhh biike riides. they're serii0us crazedd 0ver m0unt biikes. =.=. denn they kiinda partedd after there. 0nii heardd tat Tiiann Xiinn went t0 bugiis frmm darhh iirritatiingg d0ngg d0nggs. g0rt n0 ch0iice denn went t0 darhh blk near 235 t0 call Benny. O.O. 0pps, s0weex! he was slpiingg! x . x! keat was at hiishh hse to0! well, after beiingg kiinda iirritatedd bwaii miie, mwaHAHAs, benny 0fferedd tat ii culdd g0 up hiishh hse if ii wantedd. well well, 0f c0shh ii wuldd turnn up. aiirc0nn heaven! hahas. tats wadd ii t0t 0f hiishh h0me.
g0rt diisturbedd bwaii hiimm, hiishh cute lil pri 2 br0 n keat badly whenn ii was tryiingg t0 slp! ehhs hehhs, f0undd tat evenn whenn he iishh slpiingg, he lo0ks like zhut0u. haiishh, kiinda miishh tat siight, its been alm0st half a yr siince darhh last tiime ii saw zhut0u slpiingg riite next t0 miie n ii culdd hugg hiimm. kiinda s0bbs.
denn ardd 7++ alm0st 8pm++, went t0 235 t0 j0iinn darhh rest 0r darhh khakiis; tiiann xiinn, zhii miingg, ah ma0, ah benn, ah dann n darhh d0ngg d0nggs; they were damnn n0iisy, ii alm0st smackedd 0ne 0f themm!
denn at there stenn viicer0y menth0l lite wiibb benn. denn g0rt senn twiice. benny n benn at there keep 0n dee siia0x miie n ii was sh0utiingg like s0me0ne madd. xPP. denn benny's startiingg hiishh rum0rs b0ut miie agaiinn. darnn it!
denn ah dann 0s0 dee siia0x miie b0ut darhh rum0r, benn keep 0n wann t0 pull miie t0 benny's hse ferhh 0ne rdd 0f sex. wtf?!!
denn t0mm j0iinedd us later whenn ii was senn ferhh darhh sec tiime. still n0 news b0ut maii j0bb. kiinda saddenniingg. haiishh. denn after ah dann went h0me, it startedd t0 drizzle agaiinn. s0 we went t0 darhh shelter aheadd darhh playgr0undd. ii placedd maii head 0n t0pp 0f maii handd n laiidd there tiinkiingg b0ut maii bgr, perharps, ii shldd let g0; iim kiinda deadd hartedd n0w, ii d0nn place any hiighh h0pes anym0re. dar saiidd he culddn live wiith0ut miie, perharpps, darhh miie he culdnn live wiith0ut iishh maii b0dy. =.= haiishh.
denn ii alm0st bw0ke a d0ngg d0ngg, gurl,'s rec0rder. she kept bl0wingg darhh same thiingg n iits l0udd n iirriitatiingg l0rhhs! thx t0 tiiann xiinn, she fiinally shuts herhh fuckiingg m0uthh frmm darhh rec0rder. denn benn n benny, n 0ne m0re wh0mm ii ferget, m0r0ns t0t tat ii was still senn frmm previi0usly. =.= burddenn agaiinn, thx t0 t0m, they kept quiiet abiit. all darhh while stayedd at darhh shelter until 12++am, t0m sent puppy h0me swiit h0me.
wealli wann thx t0mm al0t. he sent miie h0me al0t 0f tiimes lerhhs! =DD. kiinda like maii free taxii lehhs. blehhs.

reflectii0nn 0f darhh dae; s0metiimes, chances shldnn be giivenn s0 muchh t0 s0me0ne tiimes after tiimes as they wuldd neber be cheriishh. placiingg hiighh h0pes makes miie felt dead hartedd evenn faster n earliier. there r ppl wh0 weallii d0 care b0ut miie. iim gladd s0. thx ferhh all th0se ppl wh0 caredd. euu guys r maii bestest buds.

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2006-05-30T03:37:00.000+08:00

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secrets 0f 27``05``06;
well, its was a h0peless cum pathetiic dae agaiinn.
was a n0rmal saturdae ferhh all.
ii was supp0sedd t0 returnn t0 schh ferhh CIP. c0llectii0nn 0f recycledd materiials iin niice w0rdds, ga nangg gu nii iin sacarstiic.
well, ii was pr0 enuff t0 wake up at 1o``3o am when ii w0ke up feeliingg slpy n was supp0se t0 attendd CIP at 7``45 am. =DD
denn beenn chattiingg 0nline wiibb dar, until 12``3o pm? denn went d0wnstaiirs t0 make f0ne call t0 hiimm. diialedd darhh wr0ngg n0. ferhh few tiimes. [[ 0kiies 0kiies, iim n0rt tat dumb, its jushh tat ii've g0rt darhh wr0ngg n0. savedd iin maii f0ne. ]]
chat till maii f0necardd was left $4 ++ frmm $8++ n maii c0m was left 0n all darhh way.
0rhh yarhhs, iin between darhh call t0 dar, ii calledd WRS marmmiie.
she last miinn denn tell miie tat she taggedd wiibb gladsy. tat made miie j0bless ferhh tat dae l0rhhs!! burddenn, Gladsy, n0 w0rriies, iim n0rt tat madd actually.
denn after darhh calls, ii went h0me n g0rt maiiself changedd.
jiie jiie n g0rhh g0rhh was at h0me, as marmmiie neber co0k, jiejie gave miie ardd $3 ferhh lunchh.
denn ii went d0wnstaiirs n ate maii lunchh.
walkedd past 219 as i headedd ferhh 233's c0ffee sh0pp; 0ne 0f 219 khakiis n maii usual hang0ut.
saw ah ma0, zhi miingg n s0me d0ngg d0ngg aka guaii lann didis there.
denn dr0pp s0me HIs n went 0ff.
ate maii lunchh n came backk wiibb green apple iice blendedd bubble tea [[ ii wasnn supp0se t0 driinkk c0ldd stuff due t0 pers0nal reas0nns! ]] .
denn saw ch0ngg keat, Pikachu, Yun He, Jiamiingg arriivedd b4 ii came backk.
Benny arriivedd 1o mins later?
it startedd t0 driizzle quite abit whenn ii was eatiingg halfway.
denn went ardd t0 b0rr0w bball as Pikachu was disturbiingg miie n fiirshh tiime, ZhiiMiingg diisturbedd miie to0! hehes. miiracle ehhs? he was kiinda c0ldd t0wardds miie 0rhh rather gurls.
denn finallyy g0rt darhh ball! phews, alm0st killedd Pikachu! made miie kiinda madd. humpshh, iit's kiinda weiirdd whenn ZiQi aka da gua aiinn there. blehhs, yarhh yarhhs, kiinda miishh hiimm larhhs. w0nder h0w iishh he iin Thaii, h0pe hiimm t0 returnn so0nn n he wunn buwee miie agaiinn! =DD.
denn playedd bball iin darhh raiinn.
ch0ngg keat n Benny j0iinedd miie. hehes, habb l0ts 0f funn as darhh tw0 0f themm were s0 crappy n funny. hahas, neber regret n0e-iingg themm n makiingg fwenns wiibb themm th0u they may be kiinda bastardds at tiime, they neber failedd t0 cheer miie up whenn iim upset! thx buddiies!
denn whenn ch0ngg keat went t0 rest, left miie n benny wiibb s0me small fellas, Benny saiidd tat ii t0uchedd hiishh c0ckk! =.= arghhs! iim iinn0cent! ii diinn evenn t0uchh it bwaii acciident!
humpshh, denn after tat, whenn darhh b0thh 0f us r restiingg to0, he startedd spreadiingg tat ii habb sex wiibb Yun He n Yun He's maii steadd, n darhh damnn fella keep 0n ask miie t0 d0 bl0wj0bbs. urghhs, he weallii cann get pervertiic at tiimes, perharpps, hiishh medicatii0nn rann 0ut? blehhs, ii habb n0 iidea. n ii f0undd he lo0kedd serii0usly like Zhu t0u w0rhhs! ehhs, d0nn n0e wadd t0 c0mment b0ut tat.

denn after d0nn n0e h0w l0ngg, he pulledd miie t0 g0 t0 235 n darhh rest f0ll0ws. went there duriingg eveniingg denn stayedd there until 8++ pm. ii g0rt weallii hungry whenn Benny suddenly mentii0nedd tat theres dumpliinggs at hiishh hse. after hiimm delayiingg s0metiime n biidiingg gudd bwaiis wiibb darhh rest, miie n ch0ngg keat went up t0 Benny's hse n habb 2 dumpliinggs eachh. iim wealli hungryy kiies? ii d0nn habb m0ney ferhh diinner larhhs.
denn slackedd iin Benny' s ro0m wiibb hiimm, ch0ngg keat. n0w denn ii weallii c0nfiirmedd; Benny's ro0m aiirc0nn iishh 0n 24hrs. n0 w0nder s0 c0ldd everytiime.
slackk till halfway, keat went t0 washh ro0mm, askedd benny if he wealli d0nn habb steadd n0w n he t0ld miie n0, he d0nn habb n askedd miie ... ... ... ... burddenn ii d0nn hiimm currently unavailable. ii w0nder if he meant it, ii d0 wiishh it was siincerely askedd.
denn slackedd till 11pm++, keat n miie still feeliingg lazy burddenn, we draggedd 0urselves 0ut 0f Benny's hse.
actually went t0 261 wiibb Benny ferhh hiishh Prata meal burddenn darhh hse's full n keat partedd wiibb us there n returnedd h0me, s0 ii acc0mpaniiedd Benny s0mewhere else ferhh hiishh Prata meal n he treatedd miie to0. darhh prata quite niice larhhs, denn at there t0k b0ut steadds n s0me rum0rs. denn he sent miie all darhh way backk t0 218. he c0unselledd miie quite abit. hiishh actually kiinda niice guy, resembles al0t like zhut0u iin character. evenn f0undd tat he was 0ni 1yr n 4 mthhs 0lder denn miie. maii bdae; 17``1o``92 n hiish; 17``o6``91. kiinda c0iinciident riites?
hehes. guess we r fatedd iin s0meways.

reflectii0ns 0n darhh dae; silently listenn t0 s0me0ne wh0 iishh speakiingg serii0us stuff culdd actually make euu understandd hiimm/herhh beta n diisc0ver darhh charmiingg siides 0f themm.

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2006-05-30T02:50:00.000+08:00

[[o2``28am ]]
[[ 0ffiiciiallyy Tuesdae. ]]
[[ 3o``o5``o6. ]]
[[ last dae 0f darhh mthh. h0w shldd ii celebrate it ehhs? ]]

wahhs. o5 l0ngg daes 0f unt0uchedd bl0gg. n0 new p0sts.
readers; s0weex b0ut tat kiies?! iim kiinda lazy ehhs. d0 be understandiingg larhhs.
well well, guess euu mushh be kiinda iitchy iin euur hart b0ut wadd happenedd tiishh few daes ehhs? alrite denn, shall be a gudd lil gurl iin diisguiise t0 unf0ldd darhh secrets.

26``o5``o6
humpshh, let miie recall darhh secrets 0f darhh dae. erhhs .. erhhs .. ehhs .. ii culdnn recall muchh, burddenn try maii best t0 unf0ldd kiies?
well, here it g0es;
it was a pathetiic n saddeniingg Fridae.
ii was ann0uncedd DEAD.
ii to0kk maii result, ii passedd [[ yeshh yeshh, ii did. jushh tat failedd 3 subjects. g0rt 0ni 1 pathetic A. ]].
well well, ii criiedd at darhh m0ment whenn ii readd maii results n darhh c0mments 0f MS Gan n MS Chan.
siimplyy hartbw0kenn n ii n0e tat ii bw0kedd theiir harts to0.
humpshh, denn whenn after schh, went t0 darhh f0ne bo0thh n made at least 1o diiferent f0ne calls t0 1o different n0s. 0ni 25% were answeredd.
went t0 t0wnn wiibb WanDe n Shermaiine. hey gurls, weallii appreciiatedd darhh acc0mpany n thx ferhh makiingg miie smile n fergetiingg maii tr0ubles. m0st imp0rtantly, thx ferhh lettiingg miie t0 bec0me darhh 0ldd Xiia0xGua agaiinn.
to0kk ne0pwiint at cineleiisure, sharedd iice-creamm wiibb themm, t0kk damnn l0ts 0f crapps. tat was h0w 0ldd Xiia0xGua usedd t0 be. =DD.
denn went backk h0me ardd 9++pm. enj0yedd s0 muchh funn. =DD

reflectii0ns 0n darhh dae; enj0y eachh 0f euur dae as muchh as p0ssiible, euu may n0rt n0e whenn euu miight eva ndd darhh funn mem0riies t0 cheer euurself up whenn euu al0ne n upset. s0metiimes, letiingg g0 jushh abiit d0 helpp t0 ferget a certaiinn kiindd 0f paiinn iin life. try t0 let g0 n n0rt t0 grabb s0 tiightly, perharps, iin tiishh way, thiinggs culdd g0 muchh m0re smo0ther n euu'll be less hurt?

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babyMILKb0ttle' t0gether fereva; a d0ubtful pw0miishh, a beautiful lie.

2006-05-25T15:56:00.000+08:00

[[15``44pm]]
[[ it's rainiingg 0utside. jushh like maii hart. ]]
[[ saddeniingg thursday. ]]
[[ 25``o5``o6 ]]

iim sadd n0w. serii0usly. its w0rse till ii culdd cry n0w.
haiishh.
ytdd, went t0 meet dar ferhh fiirshh tiime. he aiinn tat tall. he went there wiibb fwenns. ii went there al0ne.
meet at 15``o0pm. ii was late. he was evenn later. =.=.
teck li g0rhh n 0ne m0re guy came al0ngg. tat guy endedd up bec0miingg maii papa. =.=
d0 ii wealli lo0k tat different frmm maii piics? d0 maii lo0ks weallii b0thers tat muchh? ii hardly b0ther b0ut hiishh appearance whenn we met.
haiishh, alm0st brkk up. burddenn, d0nn habb. shldd ii weallii be harppiie b0ut it?
createdd darhh bl0g n email tat dar wantedd miie t0 create ferhh darhh b0thh 0f us. ytdd.
haiishh.
ytdd was s0 suayy.
went t0 swimmiingg whenn jie jie reachedd h0me. ii was lucky denn. if n0rt, ii wunn be able t0 be sittiingg d0wnn here n p0stiingg. why?; ii alm0st dr0wnedd in darhh deep po0l.
=.= why shldd ii wriite it here? dumbass miie. wh0 wuldd care s0 muchh b0ut miie ehhs?
tats all.
nthh muchh.

erhhs yarhhs,
was sadd frmm ytdd. after he returnedd h0me n ardd 9++pm, ii msgedd hiimm. he diinn b0theredd t0 reply. perharps he was busy n diinn saw tat msgg. 0rhh mayb he purp0sely av0iidedd it. ii weallii habb n0 idea.
th0u ii saw hiishh teshti whiichh c0nsist 0f darhh ans. burddenn, ii guess, he wuldd still ch0se t0 leave miie 0ne dae. perharps we r wealli n0rt meant t0 be. we were jushh a passerby.

babyMILKb0ttle' 's reflectii0ns 0f darhh dae; t0gether fereva; a d0ubtful pw0miishh, a beautiful lie. h0w l0ngg wuldd tat fereva be away frmm us? wuldd he weallii wann miie t0 be wiibb hiimm t0gether as wadd he wr0te iin hiishh pw0file? d0 we weallii w0rth eachh 0ther's lurbe? ii weallii w0nders al0t 0n miie n hiimm.

[[15``56pm]]

babyMILKb0ttle'. smearedd wiibb p0iis0nn.

2006-05-22T20:23:00.000+08:00

[[ 19``37pm ]]
[[ m0ndae. siickk 0f t0dae, everyday. screwedd up. ]]
[[ 22``o5``o6 ]]

t0dae? 0ne w0rdd = siianns. was at h0me ferhh wh0le damn blo0dedd afterno0n. c0shh 0f darhh stupiidd raiinn. alm0sr g0iingg 0ut denn blahhs, heavy d0wnnp0ur.

m0rniingg? evenn w0rser? actual destiinatii0n; Bukit Timah Reserve [[ siianns, been there tiimes, duriingg Pri schh camps, excursii0nns + t0dae =.= ]]
as usual, iim late ferhh schh, p0nedd maii 2 hrs detentii0nn. hengg arhhs, maii c0mestiics wasn diisc0veredd bwaii darhh prefects, maii f0ne as usual wasn c0nfiscatedd n m0st imp0rtantly iishh neber briingg diiscman. w0rse still, darhh prefect alm0st c0nfiscatedd maii vanilla p0cky! wtf, im g0iingg 0ut ferhh an excursii0nn, she c0nfiscatedd it n wadd iim g0nna eat whenn ii dinn habb tiime t0 buy maii sandwiiches bec0shh iim late ferhh schh?
hengg iishh tat imrann all0wedd miie t0 buy maii fo0dd, if n0rt, im g0nna take maii bag n smackk hiishh headd.
b0ught 2 siew maiis, 2 tuna sandwich [[ slice 0f 3 bread burddenn cut int0 triangle shapes ]], h2o. at schh canteen.
[[ ate darhh garlic breadd ii b0ught ytd whenn ii was still at h0me in darhh m0rniingg. ]]
denn 0n darhh bus, maii usual seat, darhh 2ndd last r0w riite siide bwaii darhh wiind0w seat, i ate maii siew maiis. its alweex darhh c0mm0n seat. n seatedd all bwaii maiiself ferhh darhh trip t0 bukit timah n backk t0 schh.
trip t0 there was quite l0ngg burddenn returnn trip veryy fast. ii hate it. prefer g0 there sl0w, c0me backk evenn sl0wer. =DD.

Farhanahh darliingg helpedd miie t0 spray darhh insecticide at maii leggs 0nii whenn we arrivedd at darhh entrance 0f darhh reserve.
blo0dedd creeps tat r handlingg maii m0r0n class; Mr Yap? darhh NCC teacher larhhs, veryy irritatiingg n darhh fweak0 Imrann.
ferhh darhh po0r 2e1 iishh; Mr Ch0ng n 0ne unkn0wnn female fweak0 [[ she's unkn0wnn t0 miie ]]
denn we went t0 darhh left siide 0f darhh nature reserve b4 darhh damnn blo0dedd steep sl0pe at darhh fr0nt.
went t0 darhh rite siide n asmita was t0kiingg craps n wealli sacarstic stuff n saiidd tat 0ne 0f darhh huts d0wnn there whiichh startedd wiibb a letter P was Pizza Hut. =.= [[ siince darhh alight, Mr Yap beenn targetiingg darhh 5 at darhh backk 0f darhh bus. darhh 5; miie, jas, wenyi, steph, mita. =.=! iim iinn0cent derhh l0rhhs! ]]
denn Mr Yap was stariingg at Mita. =.= darhh 0ni thiingg ii did was; pull stephh away.
ferhh darhh wh0le dae, ii n0e tat Wenyi n mita dislike miie. iim wealli tat sensitive t0 ppl's reactii0nn t0 miie! o 0!
denn after walkiingg all darhh way up t0 darhh rite, whiich was actually a deadd endd, we U-turnedd n walkedd backk t0 darhh entrance.
hadd a brkk d0wnn there. ii ate maii p0cky. ii sharedd! wiibb miita n jas! denn drankk finiishh maii h2o. T T. refilledd maii b0ttle.

*[[ main thiingg tat happenedd at darhh exhibti0n was tat ii saw a veryy cute n shuaii guy at darhh water co0ler, denn darhh fiirshh 0ne wh0 came int0 maii miindd was dar c0shh he iishh 0s0 cute lo0kiingg! been miishiingg hiimm l0ts ferhh darhh wh0le dae w0rhhs. thx t0 darhh guy! actuallyy w/0 darhh guy, ii alweady miishh dar l0ts burddenn iishh t0t 0f darhh date 0n wed! weallii cann meet 0n darhh dae marhhs? ]]

denn duriingg darhh brkk, miita was crazy b0ut darhh 0ni sh0p whiich s0ldd fo0dd at there. she evenn t0t 0f reas0nns t0 be excusedd s0 tat she culdd stay at darhh exhibiti0nn hall there t0 wait ferhh darhh sh0p t0 0penn.

after 1o mins later? we set 0ff.
climbedd darhh sl0pe until alm0st diie siia. damn steep l0rhhs, denn alm0st fell n r0lledd d0wnn lehhs!
after a unkn0wnn perii0dd 0f tiime, finally reachedd summit lerhhs. =DD
saw m0nkeys w0rhhs! all maii relatives! xDD. Lupins families. =DD
denn ii to0k f0t0s wiibb dee, farhanah, etc n finally darhh 2 blo0dedd creeps. [[ 0kiies larhhs! ii admit larhhs! ii lo0kedd weiirdd in darhh f0t0s. ]]
ii diinn bear t0 leave darhh cute place full 0f maii relatives.

[[ n0 mo0d t0 write lerhhs. later denn c0ntinue ]]
[[2o``23pm ]]

seriies 0f hyp0crites 0ccuriingg 0nce agaiinn, wh0 t0 believe?

2006-05-22T15:39:00.000+08:00

[[ 14``42pm ]]
[[ m0ndae. siimply screwedd up, a dae wiibb l0ts 0f suspiicii0niingg g0iingg 0n. d0ubtful dae in sh0rt. ]]
[[ 22`` o5`` o6 ]]

yeshh, there mayb 0nes wh0 be swiit enuff t0 tell miie "iim alweex there ferhh euu, ii pw0miishh.", burddenn, h0w many pathetic hyp0crites wh0 r swiit enuff t0 d0 s0, 0r rather evenn try? its niice ferhh themm t0 tell miie all tiishh, yeshh, it cheers miie up n make maii hart felt swiit 0f themm burddenn, at darhh same tiime, its purely n siimplyy darhh s0 calledd white lies. why darhh fuckk wuldd they wann t0 tell miie liies? wadd kiindd 0f stuff benefits themm? ii weallii w0nder.

stuff tat were d0ne, saidd bwaii themm weallii made miie felt d0ubtful. iim serii0usly l0st whenn they t0ldd miie stuff c0shh ii weallii habb t0 tiinkk hardd whether t0 believe themm 0r n0rt. due t0 darhh existiingg 0f tiishh kiindds 0f blo0dedd creeps, ii l0st maii judgement siimplyy bec0shh iim to0 s0ft-hartedd n naiive. evenn after theiir blo0dedd liies been exp0sedd, chances frmm miie were still giivenn t0 themm but theyy neber cheriishh any 0f it n endedd up cryiingg iin a pityful manner sayiingg " wadd habb ii d0ne wr0ngg t0 deserve all tiishh? why she wunn evenn giibb miie a chance? ". 0ni a min0rity 0f themm were s0 unlucky where theiir chances were unf0rtunately takenn away bwaii miie as iim s0 deadd-hartedd t0 giibb any0ne a chance anym0re. tiishh tiime, blame wh0? blame th0se bl0odedd creeps denn. d0nn blame miie. if euu wanna tiinkk tat iim pushiingg faults, g0 aheadd ii d0nn giibb a damn.

iim n0 l0nger Xiia0xGua. iim g0thiic Xiia0xGua. ferhh beta understandiingg 0f s0me blo0dedd m0r0ns wh0 0ni n0e style n nthh b0ut w0rds n life, maii g0thiic d0nn 0ni meant maii style. it meant maii everythiingg, includiingg maii hart. everythiings' been to0 darkk ferhh miie t0 see any beautiful siights anym0re. g0thiic Xiia0xGua culdd be saiidd as darhh ann0uciingg 0f maii psych0tiic ways' return. darhh warniingg 0n darhh earlier p0st were true. believe 0r n0rt.

darhh reflectii0ns 0f darhh dae; enj0y as muchh 0f maii unleashedd freed0mm as ii culdd. tiishh tiime it aiin g0nna be c0ntr0lledd, st0ppedd. maii hart iishh l0ngiingg ferhh darhh blo0dd, cuts, paiinn 0f 0thers. siimplyy preparedd t0 enj0y darhh psych0tic ways 0nce m0re. ii aiinn hartless, its jushh tat darhh hart iishh siimply psych0tiic n darhh blo0dd tat fl0ws aiinn warmm but c0ldd blo0dd. lie, cheat, betray miie as muchh as euu wann, burddenn be sure tat euu habb darhh abilities t0 play wiibb miie, if n0rt maii funn wunn last, ii wuldd get b0redd easilyy. [[ darkk dd0lliie ]]
darhh darkk freed0mm iishh unleashhedd, its maii turn t0 take darhh m0ves, d0nn regret.

[[ 15``39pm ]]

euur alweex 0n maii miindd.

2006-05-22T00:57:00.000+08:00

[[ o0``47am ]]
[[ m0ndae ]]
[[ 22``o5``o6 ]]

erhhs, t0dae went 0ut wiibb ah ma, jie jie n shangg yi [[ maii y0ungest aunt larhhs. ]]
went t0 bishann meet ah ma denn went t0a pay0hh t0 eat diinner, vegeteriann h0rhh fun n partedd at t0a pay0hh wiibb ah ma denn headedd t0 marina square. 0kiies larhhs, n0rt badd larhhs there, g0rt s0me n0rt badd lo0kiingg b0iis burddenn ii n0rt interestedd lehhs, unlike usual miie w0rhhs.

haiish, miishh dar s0 muchh w0rhhs. been tiinkiingg 0f hiimm. yea~ he t0dae discharge lerhhs!
hahas. darhh actual reas0nn 0h hiishh admitti0nn int0 TTSH; he sneakedd int0 schh wiibb fwenns t0 play bball. denn f0undd 0ut tat g0nna be late ferhh 0ur date denn climb sch gate ferhh sh0rtcut. g0rt a auntie saw denn sh0utedd at hiimm, he fell n there g0es darhh ambulance. haiishh, s0 careless. like miie. haiishh!

haiishh, 0ur date g0rt p0spt0ne agaiinn lerhhs. until next wedd c0shh he g0rt enrichment class. haiiy0s. dar mushh starddiie hardd kiies? miie 0s0 will jiia y0us derhh w0rhhs!

[[ o0``56pm ]]
reflectii0n 0f darhh dae; n0 matter h0w far darhh diistance mayb, as l0ngg as ii lurbe euu, ii will be bwaii euur siide.

iim s0weex! ii brkk maii pw0miishh lerhhs. ii diinn believe euu at fiirshh.

2006-05-20T20:49:00.000+08:00

[[2o``o4pm]]
[[Saturday. a badd dae ferhh miie. t0tallyy screwedd up.]]
[[2o``o5``o6]]

dar!
euu alrite marhhs? heardd everythiingg frmm teck li lerhhs. he t0ld miie tat euu n0w iin h-spital lehhs. until mayb tml denn cann g0 h0me w0rhhs. iim wealli weallii s0weex lehhs! ii diinn believe euur fwenn iin darhh afterno0n. ii t0t tat, tat euu all were lyiingg. c0shh he say until n0rt clear denn whenn ii made darhh fiirshh call, n0 ppl ans. wadd actually happenedd? wealli veryy w0rriiedd ferhh euu lehhs. been tiinkiingg 0f euu ferhh darhh wh0le dae.

t0dae.
actually went t0 meet dar, burddenn he diinn turn up. t0t he dua miie lehhs. calledd hiishh hp at ardd 13``43pm. n0 ppl answeredd. call agaiinn at abt 14``o0. s0me0ne answeredd, hiishh s0 calledd fwenn n tat fwenn call hiimm wen y0ng n0rt y0ngg yangg! sayiingg tat he was at h0spital. reas0n; he was afraiid 0f darhh dark denn at h0me fell d0wnn in darhh m0rniingg. =.= . denn ii g0rt d0ubtful agaiinn. [[ siimplyy darhh badd habit 0f mine.]] ii t0t he actually last minn wan t0 pangg sehh miie, denn call hiishh fwenn t0 ans darhh f0ne.

haiishh, denn ii g0rt fedd up whenn darhh fwenn suddenly jushh hangedd up darhh f0ne. denn ii neber calledd backk agaiinn. actuallyy headiingg t0 219 thru n0rth p0int. halfway up t0 darhh staircase at darhh T junctii0nn saw Vivian [[ nehhs, darhh 0ne wh0 lent miie herhh f0ne at 111 whenn ii still steadd wiibb Eddiie. Vivian, Maybel's fwenn.]]. denn she pulledd miie al0ngg t0 settle herhh tai ji. denn as iin blurhh blurhh state, ii went al0ngg t0 f0ll0w [[ actually iishh kena pulledd. ]]. denn at darhh blk 0pp0site maii c0unsellingg centre, ii f0undd 0ut wadd actuallyy happenedd between Vian n darhh b0rthbr0ok gurl aka Christine 0ng, sec 1. wadd 0ccurs; Vian was eatiingg at l0ng j0hn wiibb Fi0n [[ n0rt sure h0w t0 spell herhh name ]] n tw0 gurls [[ ferget their name n d0nn n0e h0w t0 spell it. ]] n tw0 b0iis [[ 0ne frmm 0pps n yishun sec. yishunn sec derhhs n0e kimm n eddie. ]]. denn Christine suddenly sh0utedd denn diia0 Vian. denn Tine was 0n darhh f0ne n she suddenly came n ask Viann ferhh herhh name. denn Tine t0ldd s0me0ne 0n darhh f0ne tat was Vian wh0 startedd everythiingg. in darhh endd, Vian n c0mpany g0rt h0t denn they jii0 darhh gurl t0 darhh blk 0pp0site l0ngg j0hnn t0 settle.
s0 after awhile under darhh blk, feariingg tat ppl miight call p0lice bec0shh we seemedd like wann t0 jii0 1 0n 1 wiibb Tine, s0 we went t0 darhh playgr0undd whiichh iishh 2 blks aheadd 21o, i guess? denn at there settle.
denn at there, we f0undd 0ut tat Tine bengg weii, guaii lann, la0 lann, Xiia lann wiibb us. denn darhh Fii0n n 0ne gurl frmm 0ur c0mpany decidedd tat shldd slap Tine. they let herhh cho0se wh0 she wann t0 slap herhh [[ erhhs, n0rt includiingg miie, c0shh ii n0rt inv0lvedd n if ii was ch0senn, she wuldd cry. ]]. s0 she clever, cho0se Viann. burddenn in darhh endd iishh Fii0n wh0 did s0.

Tine was quite brave larhhs. neber cry in at all burddenn alm0st d0 s0, evenn th0u ii was sh0utiingg until veryy fiierce. denn herhh face was quite redd after tat slapp l0rhhs.
denn we, minus darhh 0pss b0ii, went t0 Safra. gurls n0rt includiingg miie went there t0 play para para. =.=. ii alm0st diiedd 0f hunger at there. saw Larry n Maybel at fiirshh at there, thenn askk Larry ferhh maii hunn ki. tat damnn bl0odedd ass l0rhhs, last tiime whenn ii askedd hiimm fiirshh denn he rather t0 giibb Leeyann hiishh last 0ne denn hiishh ex whenn ii went t0 s0mewhere fiirshh denn came backk l0rhhs. fucker riites? denn in derhh endd, maybel gave miie 0ne 0f herhhs. Light derhhs. she's kiindd, lurbe herhh. denn we went 0ut 0f darhh arcade denn she gave miie 0ne, 0ne wh0le piiece ferhh maii 0wn! =DD! denn ii stenn wiibb darhh YSS b0ii. denn g0rt sehh l0rhhs. s0 siianns. denn after tat. saw y0ng shengg, alviinn n 0ne gurl wh0 alweex hangg wiibb themm derhhs. denn after themm iishh shah n kamiingg. shah t0dae damnn fucker l0rhhs. cb kiia. =.= [[ penggs. ]]
denn after tat, maybel went t0 darhh b0wliingg area wiibb miie, see Larry n Kamiingg playy po0l. denn after awhile, Viiann c0me fiindd miie denn say g0 backk t0 n0rth p0iint. denn fii0nn left wiibb miie, Viiann n darhh gurls. denn fii0nn walkedd h0me n we headedd t0 n0rth p0iint. ate maii diinner fiirshh at 9o0+ there derhh chickenn riice wiibb viiann. denn went t0 funlandd. saw kiim. c0nfiirmm he g0rt sm0ke l0rhhs. an0ther ass creep. =.=. denn to0k 0ne frmm hiimm. marlb0rl0 menth0l. denn went n0rth p0iint carparkk t0 stenn. denn after tat went n0rth p0int b1 t0liet. s0 siianns. denn after tat went backk t0 funlandd. denn 0ne gurl weariingg purple siinglet derhhs went backk h0me denn miie, Viiann n an0ther gurl went t0 n0rth p0int to0k ne0. denn after tat went t0 mac t0 spilt darhh piics. denn went seperate ways.

as ferhh miie, ii went ardd 219 fwenns' c0mm0n hang0uts jushh t0 lo0kk ferhh y0ngg qiiangg! tat m0r0nn! to0k maii f0ne n left maii siim cardd wiibb ah ma0. =.=. denn after tat, went t0 222 t0 play bliindd miice n bit Kenneth's handd c0shh he made miie madd n tml was hiishh bdae w0rhhs! =D harppiie bdae shuaii didi! L0Ls. denn went backk h0me n teck li t0ldd miie wadd happenedd t0 dar. haiishh.

reflectii0ns 0f darhh dae; t0 believe iin darhh 0nes ii lurbe m0re. be like darhh Xiia0xGua iin darhh past, trust ppl m0re. d0nn see darhh small piics wiith0ut readiingg darhh st0ry n darhh biigg piic.

=D, dar! rec0ver well 0kiies? ii lurbes euu l0ts!

[[2o``48pm ]]

iim cryiingg n0w. at tiishh veryy m0ment.

2006-05-19T22:09:00.000+08:00

[[21``56pm]]

t0 kethlyn,
euu r maii dearest daughter, ii will neber diis0wn euu. euur marmmiie's fav0urite gurl gurl alweex! ii actually n0e wh0 was darhh culprit. burddenn, ii d0nn dare t0 c0nfiirmm. denn after tat dae, euu neber t0k t0 miie 0r wadd. tat made miie suspectedd euu. all tiishh while, ii weallii been h0piingg t0 sayy hi t0 euu. burddenn, darhh hi alweex jushh g0rt stuckedd in maii m0uth n nth came 0ut. whenn ii saw euur msg, tat m0ment whenn ii readd finishh, maii tear came 0ut frmm maii eyes. iim weallii s0weex ferhh misunderst0od euu all tat tiime. mwackks. ii lurbbe euu all tiishh whiile. ii weallii did. theres al0t 0f stuff tat happenedd recently whiichh ii actually wantedd t0 share wiibb euu all tiishh tiime. ii weallii miishh darhh days whenn ii sharedd s0 muchh 0f maii daily stuff wiibb euu.

t0 la0g0ng,
iim weallii s0weex ferhh wriitiingg tat. whenn ii saw euur sh0ut0ut, ii cryy lerhhs. ii weallii diinn meant t0 hurt euu. ii weallii wantedd t0 cheriishh euu as ii pw0miishhedd euu. ii weallii h0pedd tat euu will believe wadd ii saiidd. ii weallii wann be wiibb euu as l0ngg as ii culdd. as l0ngg as euu wann miie t0. ii d0nn w0rth euur s0weex. d0nn askk miie t0 pw0miishh euu tat ii will n0rt sayy s0weex t0 euu. ii d0ne darhh wr0ngg stuff. ii habb t0 say. its maii fault. d0 fergibb miie.

reflectii0ns 0f darhh day; whenn will ii eva st0p hurtiingg ppl ardd miie? whenn cann ii weallii believe th0se wh0 ii shldd believe? ii hate maiiself. d0nn lurbe miie. ii d0nn w0rth any0ne's lurbiingg. ii neber will. all darhh hurt tat ii t0t tat was frmm 0ther ppl, was actually maii 0wnn hurtiinggs. iim suchh a m0r0n. iim a retard. iim siimplyy darhh biitchh

[[22`o8pm]]

t0tally hartbw0kenn.

lurbe euu till n0 w0rdds culdd describe.

2006-05-19T20:15:00.000+08:00

[[c0ntiinuedd frmm darhh previi0us p0st.]]
[[2o``o2pm]]

denn n0 ch0ice l0rhhs. briingg backk t0 schh.
denn went causeway t0 fiindd marmmiie.
gave herhh darhh plate 0f fo0d.
guess will save herhh m0ney ferhh diinner?
iim suchh a gudd gurl recently. blehhs.
denn msg dar t0 askk hiimm whether cann call hiimm usiingg public f0ne n0rts, denn calledd hiimm b0ut darhh NUS stuff.
will he remember t0 watchh darhh news marhhs?
=.= shuts. h0w will i lo0k like? ii seemedd stunnedd infr0nt 0f darhh cam lehhs! wadd darhh fuckk larhhs!! arhhs!!! help miie!!!!
pwease, pray ferhh miie tat ii wunn lo0k like an retardd Xiia0xZhu!
ii miishh euu! ii lurbe euu! all l0ts!
whenn can we meet?

[[ erhhs. darhh last part was del bwaii miie due t0 s0me pers0nal reas0ns. s0weex! del at 21``43pm]]
___# edited at 21``44pm, dar! iim wealli s0weex ferhh wadd ii wr0te previi0usly. ii weallii lurbe euu. weallii l0ts. #___ 21``44pm ends writingg.

[[2o``15pm]]
darhh warningg 0f darhh dae; neber let miie f0undd tat ppl r beiingg hyp0crites ardd miie agaiinn, d0nn let maii psych0pathh be unleashedd agaiinn c0shh tiishh tiime ii will neber wanna st0p it frmm unleashiingg agaiinn, n0 matter h0w afraiidd ii mayb t0 maii psych0pathh g0thiic Xiia0xGua. tiishh tiime, iim g0nna enj0yy darhh psych0tiic feeliingg.

ii lurbe euu 0ni n alweex larhhs! arghs!

2006-05-19T19:53:00.000+08:00

[[19``43pm]]
[[deadly fridae]]
[[19``05``06]]
[[ an0ther 0rdinary dae whiichh ii skipp NPCC. mwahahas.]]

wahhs. t0dae damnn funn nehhs.
n0 m0ther t0ngue less0n.
Kai Yun's bdae.
Drew grafitti 0f dar's name.
mwahahas.
went t0 NUS. [[ s0 many gurls there. siianns whenn ii saw darhh scene.]]
went there t0 watchh a chinese c0mpetitii0nn whiichh was supp0se t0 be internatii0nal.
0ni available t0 university students.
t0dae's iishh darhh 0ne t0 selectedd 2 luckyy fella t0 g0 t0 beijingg t0 c0mpete ferhh siingap0re l0rhhs.
=DD
its was a niice matchh.
they were s0 muchh pr0 in speakiingg chiinese. even beta denn meng tiingg n yu la0 shi lehhs!
O.O stunnedd.
denn ii was caught 0n darhh camera 0f Channel U.
=.=
h0pe tat darhh part wasn playedd 0n darhh news.
burddenn h0pe it was playedd lehhs.
s0 tat cann let dar see n be fam0us? =.=
mwahahas.
iim madd.
denn whenn darhh c0mpetiti0nn endedd, g0rt buffet.
ii was suchh a gudd gurl. ii suggestedd t0 take s0me fo0d ferhh darhh driver uncle siince he was senddingg us backk t0 0ur damnedd schh.
burddenn, he bw0ke maii hart. he rejectedd maii fo0dd! wat darhh fuck? n ii was carryiingg hiishh plate 0f beeh0on, fiishballs, siiew maii n p0piann until maii glass cup n maii plate 0f fo0dd alm0st t0ppledd 0n darhh flo0r l0rhhs.
damnn hiimm! swearedd n0rt t0 be suchh a gudd gurl t0 private bus drivers anym0re!
[[t0 be c0ntinued 0n darhh next p0st.]]

[[19``53pm]]

maii creatii0n. mwahahas. d0nn jeal0us?

2006-05-17T19:49:00.000+08:00

[[19``47pm]]
[[17``o5``o6]]
[[wednesdae]]

mwahahahas. ii edit derhhs.
niice?
tiishh iishh maii current deskt0p piic 0s0 nehhs.
blehhs.
xPP

[[19``49pm]]

mwahahas.

2006-05-17T19:19:00.000+08:00

[[19``o2pm]]
[[17``o5``o6]]
[[wednesdae]]

mwahahas.
Xiia0xGua c0me p0st bl0ggy agaiinn lerhhs.
w00hs.
weallii l0ngg tiime neber p0st lerhhs.
s0weex arhhs!

blehhs.
n0w, abit lazyy t0 p0st lerhhs.
c0shh everytiime chat wiibb maii ecstasy 0n msn marhhs.
wann see h0w he lo0kk liike?
blehhs!
ii d0nn wann let euu see lehhs.
mwahahas.
haiish, see lerhhs g0rt use mehhs?
d0nn n0e tiishh tiime h0w l0ngg we g0nna last agaiinn lerhhs.
s0 sadd lehhs.

d0nn wann l0se hiimm.
><
neber eva wanna l0se hiimm.
>.< !!
miishh hiimm al0t. lurbe hiimm l0ts to0.
>.< !!!
june h0lidae faster c0me lehhs!
burddenn d0nn s0 fast endd!

haiish, wadd euu d0iingg n0w lehhs?
miishh euu s0 muchh lehhs.
did euu miishh miie to0?
dar, will euu cheriishh miie as euu pw0miishhed miie?
d0 euu wealli lurbe miie marhhs?
~~ii cann feel tat theres s0me0ne else iin euur hart lehhs.~~
d0nn lie t0 miie ha0 marhhs?

[[19``2opm]]

duii bu qii. zhen derrhs hen duii bu qii!

2006-04-18T22:05:00.000+08:00

[[22``17pm]]
[[Tuesda3.]]
[[18``o4``o6]]
[[11th dae]]

haiish,
la0g0ng.
weallii duii bu qii. made euu felt haRtache.
but iif ii dun tell euu, ii feel veRy xiin ku.
la0g0ng, w0 aii nii.
yuan liiang w0 ha0 marhs?
w0 xiin ku, xiin t0ng iish nvm derhhs.
as l0ng as e thiings ii d0 jush feR euu can make euu haRppiie,
ii dun miind all tiish.
ii dun miind sacriifiisiing jush feR euu, as l0ng as euu appReciiate iit can lerrhs.
w0 men y0ng yuan y0ng yuan d0ng bu ya0 fen kaii ha0 marrhs?

[[22``23pm]]

ii luRve euu, ii luRve euu, ii luRve euu, lalalas...

2006-04-18T21:09:00.000+08:00

[[21``o1pm]]
[[Tuesda3.]]
[[18``o4``o6]]
[[11th dae]]
haiish.
still haben p0m p0m nehx.
miie type fast fast den fast fast g0 p0m p0m!
humpsh. waiit aRx. ii g0 b0il wateR fiiRsh. [[21``o2pm]]

[[21``o3pm]]
back.
phews.
wahhs.
muii eyes see things blur blur liia0x.
s0bx.
humpsh.
s0 sad nehx.
t0dae nebeR see la0 g0ng.
0ni iin m0rniing.
s0 daR veRy daR sad nehx.

wo0ts.
t0dae spent at least 6 perii0ds, 1 peRii0d = 35mins, 6 peRii0ds = 210 mins = 3 ½ hrs.
t0 fiiniish muii dRawiing
luRve iit al0t nehx.
g0nna paste it at gRaffitti cafe.
=D
mwackx.
la0g0ng!!!
w0 aii nii 0rhx.
xiiang sii nii nerhs.
mwackx.
[[21``1opm]]

humpsh! mwackx mwackx.

2006-04-16T23:58:00.000+08:00

[[o0``16am]]
[[m0nDae.]]
[[17``o4``o6]]
[[1oth dae.]]

humpsh,
ytd aRx?
wake up aRd 12``3o bahx.
bec0sh 0f la0g0ng n0rx.
he cum muii hse piick miie up.
we g0iing t0 mariina squaRe t0 watch hiish sch 0rganiise deRx inteRnatii0nal scRabble c0mpetitii0n.
den afteR tat we g0 SunteC theRe, g0 theRe walk walk feR awhiile n0rx.
la0g0ng at theRe play dRummaniia agaiin. tiish tiime nebeR iimpr0ve w0rx. escape t0 e sky 0ni get B. fiirsh tiime see hiim get B feR tat. s0bx.
den aRd 8pm we g0 back yiishun n0rx.
LOLx. at n0rth p0iint, Ba0Beii jiie jiie aka Pauliine Te0 jiie jiie bec0me muii bf, den la0g0ng abiit liike jeal0us lidat.
den miie t0ld heR al0t 0f thiings w0rx.
[[ ermx, la0g0ng aRx, wan t0 n0e wat ii t0k t0 heR aRx? euu g0 ask heR bahx. dun c0me n ask miie h0rx. ii dun n0e h0w t0 tell euu aRx.]]
den suddenly la0g0ng say wan g0 t0 e lan sh0p ab0ve 4 leaf deRx.
den ii acc0mpany him g0 l0rx.
den e c0m all bo0k liia0x.
budden nehx. ii saw Eriic theRe muii 10th ex.
humpsh. jeal0us siia. he dye e c0l0uR tat ii wan t0 dye.
humpsh, n0 much diifference as e past. a eaR-piiece, iinfr0nt c0m. LOLx.
tiink he play CS bahx. diin tiink much b0ut iit. miishiing muii ShaGua la0g0ng.
den afteR tat, we g0 mac theRe siit siit.
den la0g0ng b0ught apple piie.
miie b0ught fiish fiillet, ba0beii jiie jiie b0ught fRiies n mcflurry.
mwahaha.
miie feed la0g0ng burgeR den he feed miie piie.
s0 swiit nehx.
den at aRd o9``34pm ba0beii jiie jiie wan g0 h0me liia0x.
den miie n la0g0ng g0 t0 e playgr0und at muii hse theRe deRx.
den la0g0ng veRy tiiRed l0rx.
siit at theRe hug miie until fall slp.
haiix.
den wat else can ii d0 nehx?
siit besiide hiim sayang hiim n0rx. feel haRtache siia.
den aRd 1o``o0pm.
la0g0ng sent miie back t0 muii hse deRx lift landiing.
we at theRe hug. s0 she bu deRx each 0theR t0 g0 h0me n0rx.
den miie at theRe diia0x tw0 dr0p 0f teaRx.
den la0g0ng nebeR see.
kiish hiim 0n hiish left cheek n liips liia0x den ii fast fast run h0me.
haiix den afteR tat, ii still t0ld hiim b0ut iit.
iim h0nest maRx. siimply bec0sh ii luRve hiim s0 ii dun wiish t0 liie t0 hiim.
haiix.
g0 t0 0rh 0rh liia0x laRx.
iif n0rt la0g0ng wan sc0ld miie liia0x.
den miie will bec0me panda Xiia0xGua iinstead 0f g0thiiC Xiia0xGua leRx.
mwahaha.
niite nitex la0g0ng. mwackx. swiit dweamx. slp tiight. miish euu. luRve euu.

[[oo``4oam]]

jush wanna tell euu h0w muii haRt feels b0ut euu.

2006-04-16T01:57:00.000+08:00

[[o1``44am]]
[[16``o4``o6]]
[[Sundae.]]
[[9th dae]]

jush wanna tell euu tat ii luRve euu veRy much.
n0w, ii dun wiish e deadliine wuld be e dae afteR f0reveR leRx.
bec0sh t0 miie, f0rever iish algebRa x. e x iish any day 0n 0ur calendaR. iit miight be t0day, tml, e dae afteR tml.

th0u muii w0Rld 0nce raiined bec0sh 0f euu, muii w0Rld shiined at e m0ment when iim al0ne n iim tiinkiing 0f euu.
e t0t 0f euu, e smiile 0f euu aLweex nebeR failed t0 make miie smile.
jush h0pe tat nth will change, we will last all e way.

w0 jiiu shii xii huan nii na sha sha d3 yang zii.

[[o1``58am.]]

[[o8''o4''o6. XiiaOxGua luRve d0nGua. ii luRve muii ShaGua la0 g0ng.]][[eveRythiing staRts 0n o4``o4``o6.]]

2006-04-15T13:48:00.000+08:00

[[13``47pm.]]
[[satuRdae.]]
[[15``o4``o6]]
[[8th dae. Siince o8``o4``o6.]]
iits e staRt 0f e chapteR, a bRand new chapteR.
ii luRve hiim, wat b0ut hiim?

EdDii3 Tan Tze miing.
15 wanna be.
Xiia0xDonGua.
N0rthLanDeRx.
ExpRess.
LiibRa.
26``o9``91.
f0r3v3R l0v3.
[[13:52pm]]

muii fiiRsh p0stiing

2006-04-15T12:24:00.000+08:00

tiish bl0g called daR bwack n whiit3 c0nf3ssii0n.whetheR euu like iit 0r n0Rt.tiish iish muii bl0g, i hab muii riite t0 say, t0 p0st.

dun like it?theRe's a cR0ss 0n e t0p riite hand c0RneR 0f tiish page, cliick n faRk 0ff.

dun eveR cRiitiise miie when euu dun even n0e a siingle junk b0ut miie.