5/22/2006
seriies 0f hyp0crites 0ccuriingg 0nce agaiinn, wh0 t0 believe?
[[ 14``42pm ]][[ m0ndae. siimply screwedd up, a dae wiibb l0ts 0f suspiicii0niingg g0iingg 0n. d0ubtful dae in sh0rt. ]][[ 22`` o5`` o6 ]]yeshh, there mayb 0nes wh0 be swiit enuff t0 tell miie "iim alweex there ferhh euu, ii pw0miishh.", burddenn, h0w many pathetic hyp0crites wh0 r swiit enuff t0 d0 s0, 0r rather evenn try? its niice ferhh themm t0 tell miie all tiishh, yeshh, it cheers miie up n make maii hart felt swiit 0f themm burddenn, at darhh same tiime, its purely n siimplyy darhh s0 calledd white lies. why darhh fuckk wuldd they wann t0 tell miie liies? wadd kiindd 0f stuff benefits themm? ii weallii w0nder. stuff tat were d0ne, saidd bwaii themm weallii made miie felt d0ubtful. iim serii0usly l0st whenn they t0ldd miie stuff c0shh ii weallii habb t0 tiinkk hardd whether t0 believe themm 0r n0rt. due t0 darhh existiingg 0f tiishh kiindds 0f blo0dedd creeps, ii l0st maii judgement siimplyy bec0shh iim to0 s0ft-hartedd n naiive. evenn after theiir blo0dedd liies been exp0sedd, chances frmm miie were still giivenn t0 themm but theyy neber cheriishh any 0f it n endedd up cryiingg iin a pityful manner sayiingg " wadd habb ii d0ne wr0ngg t0 deserve all tiishh? why she wunn evenn giibb miie a chance? ". 0ni a min0rity 0f themm were s0 unlucky where theiir chances were unf0rtunately takenn away bwaii miie as iim s0 deadd-hartedd t0 giibb any0ne a chance anym0re. tiishh tiime, blame wh0? blame th0se bl0odedd creeps denn. d0nn blame miie. if euu wanna tiinkk tat iim pushiingg faults, g0 aheadd ii d0nn giibb a damn. iim n0 l0nger Xiia0xGua. iim g0thiic Xiia0xGua. ferhh beta understandiingg 0f s0me blo0dedd m0r0ns wh0 0ni n0e style n nthh b0ut w0rds n life, maii g0thiic d0nn 0ni meant maii style. it meant maii everythiingg, includiingg maii hart. everythiings' been to0 darkk ferhh miie t0 see any beautiful siights anym0re. g0thiic Xiia0xGua culdd be saiidd as darhh ann0uciingg 0f maii psych0tiic ways' return. darhh warniingg 0n darhh earlier p0st were true. believe 0r n0rt.darhh reflectii0ns 0f darhh dae; enj0y as muchh 0f maii unleashedd freed0mm as ii culdd. tiishh tiime it aiin g0nna be c0ntr0lledd, st0ppedd. maii hart iishh l0ngiingg ferhh darhh blo0dd, cuts, paiinn 0f 0thers. siimplyy preparedd t0 enj0y darhh psych0tic ways 0nce m0re. ii aiinn hartless, its jushh tat darhh hart iishh siimply psych0tiic n darhh blo0dd tat fl0ws aiinn warmm but c0ldd blo0dd. lie, cheat, betray miie as muchh as euu wann, burddenn be sure tat euu habb darhh abilities t0 play wiibb miie, if n0rt maii funn wunn last, ii wuldd get b0redd easilyy. [[ darkk dd0lliie ]]darhh darkk freed0mm iishh unleashhedd, its maii turn t0 take darhh m0ves, d0nn regret.[[ 15``39pm ]]
XiaOxGuA /
5/22/2006 03:39:00 PM
i l0ckedd maii hartt__/]
# t0 prevent ppl t0 steal it frmm euu.
c0sh 0bvii0uslyy im addiictedd t0 euu.
